Ahh... Another update :p...

Bleargh... Damn long time since the last update... Here's a short brief of what had happened...

-became the one and only tagless committee of convest 2004 (that's Convocation Fiesta 2004)...
-had to juggle between data entry job and convest job (taking care of the Convest Gallery stall)...
-notified that the data entry salary (outstanding RM252) will only be paid on 15th the earliest TT__________TT...
-met alex at Mid Valley... She's hot :p... No wonder she always got stared back at Sandakan XD XD...
-Went to KLCC for Merdeka Celebration (will elaborate more)
-currently feeling very, very low...

Now I'm going to elaborate on the last three items... Yep, Xiong managed to drag me to Mid Valley to meet her jie, that is Alexia (the one I got into trouble with >.<)... She doesn't really look like she's looking forward on meeting me, though... Not suprised at all, nor disappointed, considering what happened between me and her... It may not be a big deal for her, or anybody else, but it's a big deal for me... Watched House of the Dead (lousy, don't EVER watch it), and later head back to UIA...

As for the KLCC Merdeka celebration, it's rather a long story... I was hoping to meet Kaede there, but ended leaving UIA very late due to transportation problems (the buses was even worse than your average sardine can >.<)... When I finally reached Terminal Putra Gombak, I met Khalid, a fellow schoolmate and also a close friend of Ihab... He offered me to go to KLCC with him and his friend, but his friend misunderstood the plan and thought that I want to go back to UIA... So I had wasted my time there waiting for him... Bleh... Tried to contact Kaede by the time I reached KLCC, but no luck there... So, I went up and down the stairs, went to the park, hang out here and there, walked all the way to Sungai Wang, then back to KLCC for the firework (subarashii, since it's the first firework show I've ever seen live), then back to Sungai Wang, then to KLCC, again, and then head to Merdeka Square... Then I got this idea of going to Masjid Negara (they had showers there, and I'm in a dire need of one), but found out thet its gates are locked =.=... So I walked all the way to Pertama Complex, sit there for about 2 hours, called Kaede to apologize... Sit some more, then head back to KLCC (it was a mess, I tell you... looks like KL had just been attacked... bodies all over the places, not to mention the rubbish... somehow I can't differentiate between the rubbish and the bodies XD), and straight to Ampang Park... Arrived at UIA at 7am, and went straight to sleep once I got into bed... Woke up at 5pm (w00t)...

As for the last item, I'm wondering whether I'm really alive... Whether my existence is important to others... And whether they appreciate my existence... Why am I asking all this questions?... Because I'm so lonely... And I don't want to be selfish... I can't bug Kaede since she's busy with her studies and all... And I'm not sure if I'm in the setsunasa mood to spend my time with Ihab... And all my so-called "friends" would only seek me when they have problems... Why can't I have someone who would voluntarily spend their time with me?... Why can't any of them voluntarily cry with me?... Then again, I should have known better... I'm not as reliable as I thought I am... Just look at what happened between me and Alex... Disastrous... Last night "he" came, and I was glad... But he only came so that he could kill some time before he meet his brother... And days before that, "she" sent me a message, asking me what do I think about when I'm walking alone... I answered that I would be thinking of "her", "him", and some other things, and she replied that we are the same... And I was glad... But I know better than to have false hopes... Some lousy life I have, right...